Maybe if I write it down

Meantime, my friend in Tampa was out of the country til last night.  We exchanged a couple texts last night, then nothing.  And a few today.  I am hungry for more contact.... which is always my downfall.  My neediness. Where does this come from?  Will I ever be satisfied?

Last night, actually early this morning, I had a pretty vivid sex dream.  Well, not actually sex, but one involving close contact with a woman.  A real woman -- The Priest at my Episcopal Church.  She is an attractive woman about my age, just two years older.  But there is nothing sexual about her.  She is reserved and not at ALL flirtatious.  Which is why dreaming of her in a nightgown rubbing against me was more than a little shocking. But not unpleasant.  I will NOT be following up on this.

For the past several weeks I have been in daily contact with a woman who now lives in Tampa.  We've known each other for years and actually had a little fling or assignation a few years ago.  She's pretty amazing and fascinating in many ways.   I really like spending any kind of time with her.  She's "been there" for me in many ways. and I have tried to do the same for her.   She is calm, confident, cool and funny.  She has many interests and activities.  She would be a great life partner. But there are so many obstacles. She left for Cuba today and will not be back till Monday.  I miss her very much.